Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Reality has set in...

I have said this before and I'm going to say it again...people really treat you differently when you don't have kids. And most of the time...unfortunately its family.

I am not a private person...I do say some things especially on Facebook that I should keep to myself but I don't. I like to share what I'm going through with other people who are going through the same thing as I. I posted something on facebook one night and woke up the next morning to 3 emails from people I went to high school with that are going through the same thing as I and had no fear in sharing their story. I explained my story and all the up to date information. I want people to learn from me and maybe we can share our stories and who knows maybe bring us closer together.

I am not only going through not being able to conceive but I'm also struggling with my weight. I have always been a skinny kid growing up, always outside playing. My parents never allowed us to stay inside and watch tv, which was a good thing. I also grew up for a few years out in the country so I had to walk everywhere or ride my bike. I was fine up until I was a senior in high school and had a car and got a sit down job at a desk. Then I got married at 19 and it went downhill from there. I lost 60 lbs 2 years ago but it slowly creeped back on. Not sure why I didn't catch it earlier but I didn't. So fast forward to current day and I am back on Weight Watchers and started last week and weighed in on Monday and lost 4 lbs...YAY!! I have 50 lbs to lose in 5 mths. I am not only eating better but exercising on a daily schedule.

1 comments:

Christy said...

So glad to hear you are doing well. Great job on eating better and getting your body ready for your babe. :) Think positive and just FYI; I think helping others and encouraging others even in the midst of our own struggles and pain helps take the focus off us. :) Also, I agree people do treat you different when you dont have kids but if it makes you feel any better its not because you dont have kids so much as you are struggling to have a baby and cant. It makes people feel badly and uncomfortable and they dont know what to say or do to make you feel better. I suffered through many a comments that were hurtful but now after adopting and being far enough away from that hurt I can see people really do mean well for the most part. The beauty of you and Kevin going through this is you will always have a compassion for others that you would not have had otherwise. :)