Dreams...

I was putting Savannah to bed tonight and as I wound up her mobile it hit me...
I have been waiting for that sound for as long as I can remember
I have been waiting to become a mom for a very, very long time
My angel is here and I'm enjoying every single second of it
I don't take nothing for granted

My grandma Barb passed away 11 yrs ago this August
I miss her so much, she had a love of giraffes
After she passed the only thing I received was a stuffed animal of a giraffe
It was the only gift I got to pick out
I couldn't wait to pass it on to my child so they feel her around then
I had a dream this past weekend where my grandma met Savannah for the first time
She was walking and talking and my grandma was just fascinated with her
It was so surreal, I woke up crying and couldn't stop crying for a while
I am sad that she left this earth so quickly and didn't get to meet any of her grand kids
She found out she had cancer and by the time they found it, it had spread so quickly to her organs they couldn't stop it
She tried chemo but it was tearing her apart
I will always remember that phone call telling me she was gone
I wanted to see her but my dad wouldn't let me, he said she didn't look that great and he wanted me to keep the good memories of her
I will always remember her and I know Savannah sees her
I am thankful for the times I had with her and I want to have these memories with Savannah because you never know what's going to happen
I love listening to her cooing and watching her sleep
I love holding her and just watching her
I always told myself things will fall into place when He knows when it's time for us
I finally realize my dreams have come true and I am thankful everyday for them
Every chance I get I tell her I love her and she's my sweet little angel from above
I don't want her to know any different